Why did that bother me so much?

We had a staff meeting for my remote wok job today.  There was a change in plans and instead of during busy season I go in to pick up and drop off work, I need to be in the office one day a week.  

It hit me hard and really bothered me.   I didn’t know why.  It seemed wrong to say I don’t want to go in when I have been going to my church job.    I’ve been playing on my phone and trying to figure it out.   

A few things came to me.   My office at church is not only just mine, it has windows that open.   Every office has windows that open for good air circulation.    There are also fewer of us and spread out more.    

I did do two week long projects with teens so I should be okay going into an office.   But then I remembered we were outside with masks on that week.  We are also running our program virtually this fall.   

I have kept Joe home and not sent him to a day program to limit access.   

It has been a long week and a lot has happened.   It surprised me how this bothered me.