Why?

It has been four years we have been on this train. I don’t know why and I don’t know why us. Saturday I spent a lot of time talking with my kids. We talked about a variety of things, including Dad.

I realize I don’t have any idea how this is affecting each of my children. This week is the four year anniversary of Joe losing his job and we truly being on this journey. I work, we talk, at times they hear and at times they can’t listen.

I feel I know each of my children. But I must admit I have no true understanding how this battle with Dad is affecting them. The Christmas of 2016 Liz told me Dad was slipping and I wasn’t doing enough to help him. At the time we had been to the doctor three times with no answer. I had no idea where to turn.

Joe lost his job. We went back to our primary. She had a bunch of different explanations. She sent us off to a Neurologist. The morning of his appointment I thought over and over we didn’t need to be there. At the end of visit one I wanted to cry. It was so much worse than I thought.

I have no idea why we are here. I have no idea why my kids are out in this position. All I know is without God I could not have gotten through the past four years. And without God I will not be able to continue this journey. #earlyonsetalz #alz #caregivers #faith #catholic