You rely on me

Today was my one day off for the week. Today I gave myself permission to just sleep in and not have a time table to be there for everyone.

After finally getting out of bed and a cup of tea I called Liz. While talking to her Kate beeped in. I told Kate I would talk to her later and went back to Liz. Liz and I finished I called Kate and then Kate needed to talk to Liz. They talked them Liz called me back. We talked and finished. Eric came in to tell me he was going to pick up my prescription but he needed to talk when he got back.

He got back and we talked. We talked, then talked, then talked some more. We came to a standstill when I could not deal emotionally with a topic he brought up. He gave up and went to see Steve.

Joe won’t go to bed unless I am ready to go to bed. I have one day off a week. I just wish some of it would be to do what I want. Liz is on my case for not reading then book she left me. I am asked if I have watched or am caught up on a show.

I love my kids. I live my husband. I know there will be a day when you don’t need me so much. Today, I felt overwhelmed. Today I just wished for sometime to just watch a movie, to read a book, to not have to balance all around me. #earlyonsetalz #alz #caregivers #faith #catholic