Just what?

A call came this morning from adult day health. Joe was having a bad morning and had the routine changed. Not this morning but last night. Our son got him off the bus.
Joe was sure the lady from his program was in the house and he could hear her. Eric kept telling Dad everything was okay and he was fine. He then called me multiple times as I was with our middle schoolers to say “Mom he is worse. I need to talk to you”.

I don’t know what I am supposed to do. I have to work long days twice a week. I need to keep Joe feeling safe. If I put him in long term care he will feel like I have abandoned him. I need to take care of my kids but in doing that try to help them understand where Dad is.

I truly don’t know what to do. Tonight after he showered and I helped him dress, I hugged him. I held on as long as he let me. I love him. He needs me. But I don’t know how long I can hold on. I don’t know what is best for our family. I don’t know anything right now.