Sometimes anger overtakes

I try.   Really I do.   But sometimes the complete inaction of blood relatives just hurts.   And nothing can make it feel better.  

 I fight this.   I try to bury it.  I try to rise above and make excuses.    But then I am once again blindsided by the complete lack of understanding, the complete lack of reality.  

People close like seriously close to Joe, the ones he asks about, the ones he grew up with, they send a casual text.   Been really busy are you free to FaceTime Wednesday.   So someone of normal cognitive ability could say “Yes I’m free and I miss talking to you.”    Or as Joe can run down the hall saying Henry texted me I don’t know how to respond.   

Does he want to FaceTime,   it’s been over five weeks since you reaches out to him.   He is your only brother.   Wait check that anger.   Text back “ He can’t respond by himself.   He would like to try FaceTime with you”.  

The anger is so deep.   At times it just overwhelms me.   How can you walk away from him?   How can you walk away from us?   We didn’t ask for this journey.   This wasn’t in our retirement goals.   But I stand with him everyday.   Despite the challenge, I balance his world.   In spite of his hovering driving me crazy, I am always here for him.   

Where are you?