I bought an Elliptical

For over two years people in my life have been telling me to make sure to rake care of myself.   Um, Yup, how.  These were my first thoughts.  I’m trying to keep a family afloat financially, emotionally, spiritually, physically.  Yeah time for me, doing for me, well no money or time for that.   But hey I made it two plus years and I survived.  

Eric went off to school and my stress has skyrocketed.    Daily I struggle with tension between my shoulders.   I want to crack my neck but can’t.   I grind my teeth.  My tongue is pressed to the roof of my mouth.   I drive home from work and want to cry.  

I had a month between all the summer stuff at church and classes and long nights that I was able to walk daily.   It felt so good.  I was able to walk off some of the tension, the stress.  But then classes started.   I work such long hours I am too tired to wake up early and take a walk.   Nights come quickly and there are no sidewalks or streetlights to be able to walk with.   Some night I have slept on ice packs to decrease inflammation. Sometimes I have used Icy Hot to ease muscle pain.   I’m not good at doing weights regularly.   I don’t want to go to a gym after work I need to go home and check on Joe.  

So today Eric and I went to a few places and I bought an elliptical.   It comes in one week.   We know need to reorganize an entire room to make it fit.   I have been praying this is a good idea.  It’s not like I have money or space to sacrifice.    I hope this will help me to work off the extra stress and tension in my body.  I pray this was a good decision.