I want to be with you

Joe came home from his program. We had dinner and watched a movie. I went down the hall to read. He followed. “I want to be with you”. I tried to tell him I want to read. I want time. After all it’s 6:30pm. He rubbed my check. He kissed my head. “Okay, I’ll lie next to you”.

I know he needs to keep his world in check. But it is a demanding job. I also know when I need to put him in long term care he will feel like I abandon him. It is getting harder and harder to care for him. And he is needing me more and more. And I am so tired.