Help????

I’m not comfortable asking for help. Over the past three decades I have asked certain people only to have them hem and haw. I have asked only to find they walk away. So I have learned that besides my mom, not count on anyone for help.

Recently I was told by two coworkers they were coming to help me with a project at home. I have to say, it was outside my comfort zone to accept. But it didn’t matter. They came, they did and they plan to
Come back to help more.

After this my mom tells me that since I accepted help once, there are other ways I can do it. I shut down. It was too much. After these decades of not counting on any help it is not easy to stand here.

So now I find myself “out of the picture”. My friends have put together a schedule to give us dinner every week. I have been counseled in accepting it with grace and gratitude. I am so incredibly grateful for their generosity. At the same time I struggle with not being comfortable accepting help. Nevertheless I am trying to step out of my comfort zone and just be extremely grateful for not only the dinners but the extreme love behind them. I’m not used to it. But I am incredibly grateful for it.