Empowering

I have always wanted, hoped, and prayed that my children would be best friends and have each other’s back always. Early on, I learned it wasn’t going to happen. Lord knows I fought that and I tried. I blamed myself as a mom and I blamed the circumstances. If only Kate hadn’t been born with a chronic health issue. If only Eric didn’t have a learning disability.

I am currently listening to the Bible in a Year podcast. Father Mike who leads this started right away with talking about how families have been broken right back to Adam and Eve and Cain and Able.

I have been listening to this podcast for over three weeks now. I have to say it is empowering and that isn’t the word I want but to listen to, to hear about all these Bible worthy families, their problems, their brokenness, it helps me as mom to realize that I am human. I did what I thought was right at the time. No matter how I look back and wish or ponder, I cannot change the past. My family is not what I wish it wAs. My children don’t live how I wish they did. But it brings me some peace that we are human. The perfect family, the Holy Family, only happened once. Families that I look at with awe also have their challenges. None of us is perfect. And accepting that had some liberation.