UGH. Mass again?

I have faced issues in my life that have made me shake and have brought me to question those around me.   But none like last night.  

I faced an issue at work that brought the epicenter of our faith to question.   How do I handle it?   Can I be pastoral and emotional all at the same time?   I had some around me in various emotional states of anger, fear, tears, and shock.   I had to be the middle person and handle the situation in the most pastoral way possible.  

I have never been one to handle conflict well.  When conflict hit me, in my family or personally, I made myself scarce.  Funny how life matured you and you need to face your limitations head on.   I was asked if it really was a big deal.   I was yelled at that I was making a mountain of a molehill.    I was totally shaken and didn’t sleep.   

But in the light of morning, I know without a shadow of a doubt, yes this is a big deal and even more of a big deal than you fathom.   You think i made a mountain of a molehill, you have no clue as to how high this mountain is.   You have no clue as to what actually happened.  

I May have spent a sleepless night running this through my head, but I wasn’t alone.   There are some tenants of faith that are non negotiable.