Three years ago

Three years ago the news would have been welcome.  Three years ago it was what I was asking for. Time and again, I realize to thank God for the prayers bit answered.  

I received an email this week that my mentor had resigned from the job.   I cannot tell you the days months or years I sat in church in front of Mary asking to be able to stay in the parish.   I never wanted to leave.   I just wanted to move forward but only there.   Well it turned out to move forward I needed to leave there.  

Hearing the news was heartbreaking but also not quite a surprise.  I went to the office and told them.   I was met with “No, no, no and let me say it no”.   Yup it was heartwarming to hear.   But to look back and to really think on it, there were and are real roadblocks to that position that I only accepted after I wasn’t heart set on the job.   In the past two and a half years I have made more progress where I am than all the years of where I was.  

I cannot in anyway discount the most amazing friends given to me with this job.   My dad always said to me “The devil you know is better than the devil you don’t”.   In making this leap, I have learned it is better to listen to where God wants you to be then get bogged down in fear.    I never wanted to leave.    And yet now, I have no intention or desire to go back.   I know in my heart of hearts I am where I should be.