I am worried about Kate

I am worried about Kate

My middle, Kate, had had health issues her entire life.   She was the only one of ours born without needing NICU but that quickly changed.   She has suffered with colon problems since she was days old.   It took us ten years to find an accurate diagnosis and then years more to find proper treatment.   Due to all of this and because of it Kate is prone to high levels of stress and anxiety.  

However, through her college career she has grown and blossomed in remarkable ways.  In this time she has also found her match in Adam her Army Lieutenant.    I always thought she would be with a Monday to Friday, 9-5, guy but that is not who she fell in love with.  

So with weeks to graduation and wedding, pandemic strikes.   The news on how to finish student teaching is vague to say the least.    Kate has kept in almost daily contact with her supervisor but as with a lot today there is no clear guidelines.   Kate is extremely concerned about getting certified as a teacher and if it would even happen by the new school year.  

So follow that concern with getting married.   She and Adam are scheduled for a West Point wedding on June 6th.  It is looking less and less that that will happen.  Adam is in the division at Fort Bragg to deploy in case of emergency.   They desperately want to be married.   They are thinking of eloping with parents present and at some point the whole wedding thing.   Adam is currently not allowed out of a 50 mile radius of Fort Bragg.   Every day and every night I wonder how will I get Joe to his daughter’s wedding.  I mean seriously wasn’t it enough I left him home while I went to Liz’s white coat ceremony.    He needs to be at Kate’s wedding.  

I know in my depths that this is an unprecedented time.   I know this is uncharted territory.   But tonight my girl lay against me crying.   Crying from the stress and uncertainty she is facing in her career and in her marriage.   She is upset at the unpredictability of her world.  

She and Adam want to reschedule and have their day with the whole West Point wedding and reception.    I so desperately want that for her.   But Adam will go to Ranger school and then will he be deployed or not?    

I know the world is unpredictable right now, but my focus is on my girl and on my family.  

He is Restless

He is Restless

Privilege and Guilt

Privilege and Guilt