A Day of Tears

Kate has been home almost a month now.   Throughout there has been struggle, challenges and just trying to survive the day.  Yesterday was the day of tears.  

To start it was a miserable day outside.   It was pouring rain and the wind was howling.  Daisy would run out to do her business and then run back it.   By the end of the day her energy was something to also have to deal with.  

Throughout the day Kate had mini meltdowns.   There was some crying here and there about the wedding.  Each time Daisy stick herself in the middle.   I couldn’t tell if it was for the better or not.  In one aspect of raising Kate, this attention from Daisy kept her from completely losing it.   On the flip side, Kate hadn’t lost it to get rid of the emotions to try and calm down.  

Daisy and Adam were trying to talk about rescheduling their wedding a year out.   I am filled with anger about this.  I have fear, real true fear, that Joe won’t know his little girl a year from now.   All along was this cloud that he might not know Liz at her wedding and then where would he be a year later for Kate’s wedding.    Now to wait another year.   I have such a bad feeling about this.  

Yesterday was Kate’s day to try to really let go of all the pain and trial she is suffering.  I feel so bad.   So much in Kate’s life has been a struggle m, has been a real challenge.  She has struggled every step of the way from day two.  

There is so much of this pandemic I can handle.  There is so much I can just deal with  Putting off Adam and Kate’s wedding and all the emotions around that is too much for all of us to handle.